"Nothing To Say"

"For what?"

"Well...he did apologize."

"And I accepted his apology.  Just because I accepted his apology doesn't mean his actions were acceptable to me and that I want him around anymore."

"But don't you think that's harsh?  I mean...he made one little mistake."

"No...I don't think it's harsh.  I have nothing to say to him.  Frankly I think more people should be so harsh with their expectations of how folks treat them."

"Okay...I feel like that's some kinda dig."

"Why?  Is there a situation in your life that statement refers to?"

"He's only cheated with one woman."

"One woman for six years.  Would it have been worse if he cheated with multiple women in six years?"

"He apologized."

"And you accepted his apology.  I know."

"He's a good man."

"Um...hmmm..."

"What are you trying to say?"

"I'm not saying anything."

"Whatever."

Silence.

"So you think it's worse that it was the same woman for six years?"

"Doesn't matter what I think and you already forgave him."

"I know it doesn't matter but I'm asking anyway."

"I'm not answering that."

"Why not?"

"Because I don't want to."

Silence.

"We're doing much better now."

"Okay."

"GOD YOU MAKE ME SO SICK WHEN YOU GET LIKE THIS!"

"Like what?"

"When you won't talk to me!"

"I'm talking.  I'm just not telling you what you want to hear."

"I just asked for your opinion."

"You already know my opinion without my saying a word.  I've known you all of your life and you've known me all of your life."

Silence.

"I don't trust him anymore."

"I would think it would be hard to initially.  Seems like that's something that would take a while."

"How do I get over this?"

"I don't know.  I think you need to go talk to somebody."

"I'm talking to somebody.  I'm talking to you."

"Not me.  Never me.  Not about this.  You need somebody with some initials behind their name."

"There's a counseling service at the church."

"Are they real counselors that are under the laws surrounding doctor / patient confidentiality?"

"Huh?  I guess."

"Be sure before you tell folks in the church all your business.  Some of them people can be gossips and the whole church will know your business."

"I never thought about that."

"Not many do."

"You woulda left him huh?"

"I would have never married him but I'm not you."

"Know what makes me SO mad?"

"No.  What?"

"She was at our wedding."

"Um...hmmm..."

"I hate her."

"Why?  You don't hate him."

"Because she was at our wedding."

"So was he.  In a greater role might I add."

"See...that's why you're alone.  You're so damn sarcastic and bitter."

"I'm sorry...my voice isn't sweet enough for you?  You think I give a damn about being alone instead of dealing with bullshit from some guy who should already know he needs to act like a damn man?"

"You never liked him."

"No.  I didn't."

"Why didn't you say something?"

"I never said anything and yet you knew I didn't like him.  Who's boo-boo-the-fool now?"

"Sometimes I don't like you."

"I know."

"I started taking the pill again."

Silence.

"I figured I should get past this before we keep trying to have a baby."

"What did he say when you told him?"

"I didn't."

"Can't say that I blame you."

"I just don't want to be a failure."

"Nobody does."

"So you're not going to call him back huh?"

"Nope.  I have nothing to say."

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