I'm sitting back watching my stepson, who has been my SON since he was three years old, get ready to go off with his sperm donor for the first time in seven years.

I'm trying to relax. Trying to play it cool but the fact that he is about to go off with some stranger is really more than I know how to deal with.

I have to pretend I'm okay with this because I love my wife and I love my son but, to be honest, I'm far from okay with this and don't really know how to deal.

Dude will be here in an hour. My son is excited but scared. I told him that it's okay to be excited and scared and reminded him that his mother and I were a phone call away. Yeah...I was against an 11 year old having a cellphone before but the first thing I did when we found out we had to let him go was buy him a phone.

I'm not good with this.

But I have to pretend to be.

Dude better not cross any lines. My son had better come back happy and healthy.

Or it's going to go DOWN-T.

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